* This is a continuation of a work of fiction.
...."You said it right there, Mrs. Lucy. You said it right there"
"You know ole' Mister Columbus was really trying to find Asia when he landed his three ships in the Caribbean. Talk about a wrong left turn. Least he wasn't tryin' to go cussing some map or blame it on some road sign that only his two eyes are able to see in this world. I'd say he did blame a women whether she was there or not. I can just hear him know, blamin' Queen Isabel for somethin', can't you Mrs. Mable?"
"Now Lucy, you better quit before we get taken in for men bashing or some man thinkin' we've lost it. I don't want us to focus too much on the following a lost man part, but the part about being a long way from home. I bet I know exactly how those gulls feel. Folks get nervous when the air smells different. I know when I'd leave home I wouldn't be happy until I could smell home again. I can't tell you how much I'd give someone for just one brief smell of the dirt from my home and that trail. Why, I'd just rub it all over my face until I could smell it good in my nostrils. Home ain't a place, Mrs. Lucy. It's smells and noises and when those are gone, it feels like there ain't nothin' left."
"I know that's right, Mrs. Mable, but we got no time for bein' sad today. Primwillow is your new home and everybody here loves ya' here that knows you good."
"I just don't think it will ever feel like home. Seems like more things is missing than is here. I know all that used to be isn't anymore, but it just seems like the world has gotten a little bigger and deeper and I don't know it anymore and it don't know me. We used to speak, but now he ain't listenin' and I ain't talkin'."
"Maybe we should go back now, Mrs. Mable. That chill is getting a little bit stronger and I probably need to be headin' in to check on my other peoples. Its been a good walk for the both of us and this fresh air always does me wonders." Lucy said, but felt a little cheap and shallow for saying it. She knew exactly what Mable was missing and knew Mable could see it in her eyes. Her training had taught her to never, never get too personal with the residents. All of this seemed personal, very personal, but that's how this whole life seemed. Seemed that people had been telling her not to let things get to her or to not feel a certain way her whole life when those feelings were all someone who was really breathing could feel. People were always acting like you were some strange creature when you acted human. It was as if they wanted you to spend all your time pretending and she just couldn't do it. She knew her relationship with Mrs. Mable had always been over the line. It had always been personal. Mrs. Mable wouldn't have had it any other way because she had said they were friends and told her that friends ain't too prideful to look each other in the eye and know that they were both weakness and strength all in the same glance. And she knew that Mrs. Mable wasn't just friends with everybody. Lucy held it as an honor to know Mrs. Mable so well. She at once wished to take her words back. She knew why she had said them. It was always easier to leave than stay. It had been modeled by everyone she had ever surrounded herself with.
"Now, you don't got to get worried, Mrs. Lucy. I'm not goin' off the deep end and begging you to join me. Heck, I'm not even talking about something tangible. It is something like when you're having the time of your life, but it all seems fake because you can't share it with the only one you care about. Ever since William has been gone, I wonder how to smile and lean back into my chair for a good laugh. When he was alive, I could always do that because I could look into his eyes while I was smiling and know that he knew deep down why I was smiling and it made me smile bigger. It was as if we had, had some special joke that only he and I shared. He knew why I ticked and why I was really smiling." Mable replied having completely ignored Lucy's comment, knowing she hadn't really meant it and Lucy was glad she had......
Snippet 10 coming sooner than later. The blog is about to become a little more updated again (little being the KEY word!)
David
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